Xia Xue you changed my life!

So recently, I saw a post Wendy made on FB. It was a link to famous Singaporean blogger XiaXue's latest blog post! So...out of curiosity, I went to read it. She talked about "The Secret". And I do believe it changed my view of the world. Basically, she says we have to be grateful for the things we already have in life and not to be a sour puss. Sour puss' only get more shit. :D Explains a lot of things. I myself am a pessimistic person. So I guess I myself have been bringing negativity into my life all this while. :(  

And she also said that whatever you really want, the Universe will give it to you. Just use affirmations. For example by writing something 10 times down on paper. :) I know Ru and I have already done it. Hope it works. :) But like Brielle said, it isn't magic. So it may not work 100%. But I guess I can hope... :)

Officially have 10 days to finish studying for Mid Year Exams TT 

Bible Teacher coming over to my house later and then gonna meet Ru at Mac to study. Guess I gotta go, just wanted to blog about "The Secret" :) 

Justin's Surprise B'day Party @ Hard Rock Hotel

Met up with Fuxuan and Wendy at JE mrt at 3pm on 12 June and headed to ION. I was early as usual and had to wait for them. >< Met up with Zi Ning and Mei Ling at ION. Then I went to find my boss Adeline to get her to sign Wendy and my payslip while the others went to get Share Tea. <3 They got it for me too!

They went to Prologue to look for a book for Justin while I went to meet Adeline. When going back to Prologue I called Zi Ning to ask her to look for Imperius by Robert Harris but she said they chose the book alr. I must admit that I was quite sad that they didn't wait for me. D: Oh well. They wrapped it in bubble wrap and stuck a pink ribbon on it. :D We had a hard time trying to stop Zi Ning from popping the bubbles on the bubble wrap xD

Then we hopped onto the MRT and headed towards Harbourfront. Once there, we picked up the Sarpino's Pizza that Wendy had ordered for the party. Then we went to Cold Storage to buy the drinks and cutlery. We bought 10 bottles of drinks I think. So imagine the number of things we were carrying TT

And because we didn't have much time, we had to walk real fast and I was starting to regret wearing my new wedges. 

Then we went to Sentosa Monorail to wait for Douglas and Renee to come and pick us up as they had the access card to the Hard Rock Hotel room in which we would be surprising Justin. The Hotel is LAVISH. LUXURIOUS. GLAMOROUS. There were diamonds in the lift. :O Even if it is fake, it's BLING BLING. <3

Yep, it looks like that ^ Awesome or what? 

Justin, Syamim, Steph, Xue Yi and An were at USS the whole day. Other then the drama people, Justin's classmates also turned up to surprise him. :)

When Xue Yi texted us that they were about to come up to the hotel room, all of us hid under blankets and bedsheets and behind curtains. xD 

This is what a room in Hard Rock Hotel looks like. But of course with us teenagers there it was all messed up lah. I got this off the net!

When Justin entered the room, the lights were turned off. However, due to wrong timing on our part, our surprise failed xD but it's okay, he was pleasantly shocked anyway ^^

This is what I wore there. Got the top especially for the party from Jurong Point ^^ Mei Ling commented that it was nice ^^ And she is a fashionista so that meant a lot ^^

Fuxuan, Wendy, Zi Ning and I all chipped in for the book but I got Justin a present of my own too, a shirt that says "Are you talking to me?" from Fox! :D I hope he liked it, 'cause the book seemed to have disappointed him. :(

Rennes made him a photo collage and An gave him some musical instrument. Zi Ning gave him a card too! She drew Pokemon at the front! :) How cute! Think he liked it. I realised I didn't give him anything personal. :( I just hope he brings the shirt I gave him to UK! ^^ So that he'll remember me everytime he wears it!

I was the "DJ" during the party! I kept blasting music and coincidentally my phone has a lot of party songs ^^

We ate the pizza, and the birthday cake but apparently the drinks was for nothing. 'Cause there was booze. Vodka. 40% TT Dunno how but Steph managed to get it for us. It's the real deal man. Not the fruit vodkas they sell in Sheng Siong that is only 4.8% concentrated. :O 

Le Pizza ^

I didn't wanna try at first 'cause I was afraid I would get drunk but then Fuxuan got curious and wanted to take a sip. So being a monkey, I did what I saw her do and took a sip too. Here's how it felt: It burnt my tongue and my throat. Like hell. TT Why DO people drink this stuff eh?

And then, Fuxuan decided to take one whole shot and me, not wanting to be left out, drank a shot too. And the burning process repeated itself but the 2nd time was less painful xD It tasted like perfume TT If possible, I never want to drink again. Besides, I am still 17 so I am kinda guilty right now. TT

AND THEN, Douglas got drunk :X I thought he was fooling around but turns out he was really drunk. It was so bad that we had to call his parents to pick him up, since we couldn't send him home xD Apparently the security guard at Vivo kept staring at him! But the poor guy was just blabbering nonsense about literature. So cute~

Surprisingly, the others who drank were fine. At most slightly red-faced or sleepy. Fuxuan was the sleepy one xD I was perfectly sober :O 

Anyways, most of them left at 9.15pm but I didn't wanna go 'cause it may be the last time I would get to see Justin so I stayed till 10, even though I was supposed to be HOME by 10 xD The things I do for crushes TT

Justin gave most of the visitors goodbye hugs so I got one too. :) Made me so damn happy, even though I felt kinda awkward 'cause he knows I like him. Damn, there were so many things I wanted to tell him but I couldn't really get close to him 'cause everyone else was surrounding him :( 

And the most important thing I wanted to tell him was "Thanks for being a part of my life and I'm gonna miss you..." 

I hope I can go to UK one day and run straight into him. Sigh...

Well, I'll definitely remember that hug for years to come~

That's all for now. I gotta go do Chem. Fml. 

So close...and yet so far

Yesterday some of the Drama people and I (and Mazi) went to Burger King at Jurong Point to hang out. This is only the 2nd time I got to hang out with such a small clique of drama people. It's more fun than having the whole drama clique cause people will be talking all over each other. :(

Anyways, HE was there...and he took my breath away with every strum of his guitar. Well, technically MY guitar but when he plays it, he owns it, it's his. :) A lot of crush related secrets were exposed yesterday. Wendy's, Hejin's, and my crushes were exposed. Mine was exposed cause An was looking through the picture on my phone and saw one of ____ that I obviously stole from his FB page. -.- Damn!

But An's a good friend, he promised to keep it a secret. ^^ Anyways, gotta go for breakfast. Brb!

Back! It's Nurul's birthday today. We might be celebrating it tomorrow! :) Anyways, I skipped school today 'cause I thought Mr Tan would be going through the COE tutorial today, which I haven't done, but he hasn't so...I skipped school for nothing. But I might as well use the time to study for GP! :) My GP midyear is tomorrow! >< Wish me luck! ^^

Just...in time

What happens when you're too excited to sleep? Just chatting with him makes me so happy. Talking about the new guy, not the old one! :) He came into my life outta nowhere and is gonna disappear again soon :(
I just can't get enough of him...

Life and it's downs

Recently, one of my best friend's broke up. :( I felt really sad for her and at the same time, it reminded me of HIM. So, I called Brielle, hoping it would cheer me up but hearing Brielle's voice made me want to cry more. So inevitably, the tears started to stream down my cheeks. And after a while I couldn't keep it silent. Noises were escaping from my mouth. I couldn't hold it in anymore. Brielle just laughed at me xD Haha!

Eventually it's all a lie...

And after that I stupidly went to text him all my feelings. -.- Here's what I said:

_______'s story made it all come back. I cried for her and also for myself. Well, my pretending to get over you succeeded for a while. :) But I guess to be honest I am still in love with you. First love and all. Can't even look at other guys. Sigh. Like I signed a pledge of loyalty to you or something. The scary feeling is that I might never fall in love with anyone again until many years later. x.X Tomorrow I am going to wake up and pretend that I am over you again. And this cycle is going to repeat for many years to come....nights GWICGO! (guy whom I can't get over) 

Okay, I gotta admit that the last line was cheesy. But when you're emotional your brain doesn't function well does it??

Anyways, today was the Drama showcase for the school. They were awesome :) So proud of them. The drama people were awesome! WE NEED A FREAKING DRAMA CLUB! >< I feel like quitting guitar anyway. I feel like a freeloader and have zero confidence in my guitar skills. :(

Anyways, kinda having problems accepting that I can't be any closer to ____. Not the person I sent the text to. Someone else. He's totally my type but we couldn't get close. Hmph. Life sucks sometimes. Anyways he is leaving us in June.
My mom is nagging at me to go and shower. Bye!

I am back fast eh? :D Just wanted to say that I finished reading the entire Hunger Games trilogy thanks to Jessica! She lent me all the books! <3 Peeta and Katniss forever!! <3
Oh, and Pottermore is out. I am in Slytherin! Hell yeah! And my wand is made of sycamore wood with unicorn hair core. Awesome <3 I know why I am in Slytherin. Not cause I am mean or evil but because I am ambitious and CAN BE manipulative. But I don't think I will manipulate people for no reason but if I have a reason I think i have the ability to do so. Somehow.
Chem results were shown on the projector screen for the whole lecture hall to see. Our class didn't do well. We weren't among the Top 10 classes for the Chem test. :( And no one in our class got 27-30, 30 being full marks. So basically we aren't working hard enough. I got 20/30 only. But being a Slytherin, that really hurt my ego. I want my name up there. I am gonna work hard for chem. Oh and Physics lecture test is next Monday. It's out of 75 T.T and there can be negative scores so that one I gotta work hard for too. And this sat I have mother tongue common test and I don't have time to study cause of drama. Kill me pls :(

Getting Emo Again :(

I have two Apps in my iPhone, one called Happiness and one called Inspiration. Since I lack both, I shall go and click on them. But before being happy and inspired I need to first know how to be content. So I Googled this "How to Be Content". This is what  got: 


 In Philippians 4:11, Paul said, "I have learned in whatsoever state I am in therewith to be content." The Amplified Bible describes being content as "satisfied to the point where you are not disturbed or disquieted". It doesn't say satisfied to the point where you don't want change, but satisfied for now until God brings the change. Philippians 4:6-7 sheds more light in this area by saying, "Have no anxiety about anything, but in all things by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, continue to let God know what you want", and verse 7 "the peace that passes understanding shall keep your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus". Allow me to paraphrase these scriptures in my language for you. Don't be upset about anything, no matter what is happening. Pray about it, and tell God your need. While you are waiting for God to move, be a very thankful and grateful person for all that God has done for you already. (Note: Let me say here that if God never did one thing for us except write our names in the Lamb's Book of Life, that alone is more than enough.)

That was quite a nice way of putting things into perspective. :) Depend on God cause God knows what I need. Not what I want but what I NEED. 

Now the happiness one. Clicked on it and this is what I got:

"Always say yes when someone asks you to dance" Haha! That's awesome advice! I think the point of this is to tell me to say yes to new opportunities and not to shy away from them. Okay, point taken :)

Now the Inspiration one: *clicks*

"We cannot do everything at once, but we can do something at once." 

Omg, how true!! For example. I gotta do my Math tutorial at once :D I woke up early just to do it but I am ashamed to say that I havent done it yet >< 

Now that I feel better and can tackle the LONG day ahead of me, (I have drama practice till 7.15pm) I shall post some updates on my life.

I almost died during PE yesterday. My friends forced me to run 3 rounds without stopping. The pain made me almost cry. T.T Wth~ I am such a baby :( 

Then GP lesson was fun cause Mr Shermann (awesomest GP teacher ever) let us watch a movie related to Human Rights : The Island. The suspense was just too much! Such a cool movie! I can't wait to finish watching it. We only watched half way. 

Mr Shermann said he liked my Intro for the Formative Assignment essay and was looking forward to the rest of the essay. Le me over the moon ^^

We got our Lit novels imported from overseas!! <3 The Duchess of Malfi and The Remains of the Day. Le me over the moon again ^^  Love the smell and feel of new books! Can't wait to start reading The Remains of The Day!

Drama practice was tiring as usual. We had to REPAINT the set >< Got paint on my skirt and body. Ew!! Sang songs with Nurul, Fatin, Steph and Mei Ling...and Justin at one point I guess o.O 

Drama is full of awesome people I swear :D Oh wells, gotta go and do math now. Will blog again soon :) Although nobody reads my blog -.-