Thursday, June 28, 2012
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Sometimes help comes from unexpected people and places
So...recently I needed this chemistry planning experiment. I had missed a lesson 'cause of drama last time! ;( So...I asked a few classmates and everything but to no avail. The other missed it too, like in the case of Steph, and others had either misplaced it/lost it, or couldn't be bothered to look for it. Or they missed that lesson too. But this thing is really important 'cause it will come out for CT and could take up 8 - 10 marks! So time to reveal the saviour: Jiamin, my guitar friend <3 Thanks babe! :)
Next time you need anything can come find me kay? And I know that An and Fuxuan need it too cause they missed the lesson due to drama as well, so I shared it with them on fb :) Oh wells, Lit and Math was horrible today. I just pray for a pass and I promise I will learn AP-GP damn soon! :( It cost me 25 marks during the test. Oh...and An and I had a coincidental sitting arrangement for the math paper. We were right beside each other. Nice coincidence! :) Gotta go study chem now. 2 more papers to go!
Next time you need anything can come find me kay? And I know that An and Fuxuan need it too cause they missed the lesson due to drama as well, so I shared it with them on fb :) Oh wells, Lit and Math was horrible today. I just pray for a pass and I promise I will learn AP-GP damn soon! :( It cost me 25 marks during the test. Oh...and An and I had a coincidental sitting arrangement for the math paper. We were right beside each other. Nice coincidence! :) Gotta go study chem now. 2 more papers to go!
Sunday, June 24, 2012
The Awakening
"The Awakening"
A time comes in your life when you finally get it.
When, in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out...ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying and blaming and struggling to hold on.
Then, like a child quieting down after a tantrum, you blink back your tears and begin to look at the world through new eyes.
This is your awakening.
You realize it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and security to magically appear over the next horizon.
You realize that in the real world there aren't always fairy tale endings, and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with you... and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.
You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are... and that's okay. They are entitled to their own views and opinions.
You learn the importance of loving and championing yourself... and in the process a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval.
You stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to you - or didn't do for you - and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected.
You learn that people don't always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for you and that everything isn't always about you.
So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself... and in the process a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance.
You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties... and in the process a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.
You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view.
You begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for.
You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you've outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with.
You learn that there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a "consumer" looking for your next fix.
You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a bygone era, but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life.
You learn that you don't know everything, it's not your job to save the world and that you can't teach a pig to sing.
You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake.
Then you learn about love.
You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be.
You learn that alone does not mean lonely.
You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes.
You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO.
You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs.
You learn that your body really is your temple. You begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin to eat a balanced diet, drink more water, and take more time to exercise.
You learn that being tired fuels doubt, fear, and uncertainty and so you take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play.
You learn that, for the most part, you get in life what you believe you deserve.
You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen is different than working toward making it happen.
More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You also learn that no one can do it all alone, and that it's okay to risk asking for help.
You learn the only thing you must truly fear is fear itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears because you know that whatever happens you can handle it and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your own terms.
You learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom.
You learn that life isn't always fair, you don't always get what you think you deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people... and you learn not to always take it personally.
You learn that nobody's punishing you and everything isn't always somebody's fault. It's just life happening. You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls.
You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you.
You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about: a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower.
Then, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never, ever settle for less than your heart's desire.
You make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility.
You hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind.
Finally, with courage in your heart, you take a stand, you take a deep breath, and you begin to design the life you want to live as best you can.
~ Sonny Carroll
A time comes in your life when you finally get it.
When, in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out...ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying and blaming and struggling to hold on.
Then, like a child quieting down after a tantrum, you blink back your tears and begin to look at the world through new eyes.
This is your awakening.
You realize it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and security to magically appear over the next horizon.
You realize that in the real world there aren't always fairy tale endings, and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with you... and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.
You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are... and that's okay. They are entitled to their own views and opinions.
You learn the importance of loving and championing yourself... and in the process a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval.
You stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to you - or didn't do for you - and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected.
You learn that people don't always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for you and that everything isn't always about you.
So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself... and in the process a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance.
You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties... and in the process a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.
You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view.
You begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for.
You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you've outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with.
You learn that there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a "consumer" looking for your next fix.
You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a bygone era, but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life.
You learn that you don't know everything, it's not your job to save the world and that you can't teach a pig to sing.
You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake.
Then you learn about love.
You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be.
You learn that alone does not mean lonely.
You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes.
You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO.
You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs.
You learn that your body really is your temple. You begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin to eat a balanced diet, drink more water, and take more time to exercise.
You learn that being tired fuels doubt, fear, and uncertainty and so you take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play.
You learn that, for the most part, you get in life what you believe you deserve.
You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen is different than working toward making it happen.
More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You also learn that no one can do it all alone, and that it's okay to risk asking for help.
You learn the only thing you must truly fear is fear itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears because you know that whatever happens you can handle it and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your own terms.
You learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom.
You learn that life isn't always fair, you don't always get what you think you deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people... and you learn not to always take it personally.
You learn that nobody's punishing you and everything isn't always somebody's fault. It's just life happening. You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls.
You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you.
You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about: a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower.
Then, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never, ever settle for less than your heart's desire.
You make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility.
You hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind.
Finally, with courage in your heart, you take a stand, you take a deep breath, and you begin to design the life you want to live as best you can.
~ Sonny Carroll
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Whoever this Sonny Carroll person is, thanks for that. :) There are lots of learning points from that and I am going to do a reflection on these when I have time to blog after the Common Tests! :) Toodles~
Saturday, June 23, 2012
Exam stress!
I got pimples already from
Exam stress TT btw I am using my iPhone to blog now. Pretty convenient eh? :) don't have to turn my comp on! Gonna get darker eye bags soon too! ><. "I'm going out of my mind...all day and all night" - One Thing by One Direction. I have 12 chapters left to study and roughly 6 days to do it TT so...2 chapters per day. I am screwed >< Hope luck is on my side this time. Why have I been slacking/procrastinating?? Shall go and shower now then back to the books =[ hell, even Brielle the smarty is stressed out!
Exam stress TT btw I am using my iPhone to blog now. Pretty convenient eh? :) don't have to turn my comp on! Gonna get darker eye bags soon too! ><. "I'm going out of my mind...all day and all night" - One Thing by One Direction. I have 12 chapters left to study and roughly 6 days to do it TT so...2 chapters per day. I am screwed >< Hope luck is on my side this time. Why have I been slacking/procrastinating?? Shall go and shower now then back to the books =[ hell, even Brielle the smarty is stressed out!
Thursday, June 21, 2012
Things to do with friends...
Things to do with friends after common test:
1) Go Harry Potter Exhibition with Drama HP fans :)
2) Go karaoke with drama people
3) Watch Hunger Games with Fuxuan and others who havent watched it on my comp!
Things to do with friends after Promos:
1) GO LASER TAG BABAY! :D
2) CHALET!
3) Watch my first M18 movie with fellow 18 year olds :D
4) Celebrate the world not ending xD
5) Maybe drink a little vodka legally ^^ just a little! :P
Things to do with friends at the beginning of 2013:
1) Get driving lesson with Judy and other 18 year old friends
Things to do with friends after A Levels:
1) One more chalet!
2) Go overseas!!
3) get a job together :)
1) Go Harry Potter Exhibition with Drama HP fans :)
2) Go karaoke with drama people
3) Watch Hunger Games with Fuxuan and others who havent watched it on my comp!
Things to do with friends after Promos:
1) GO LASER TAG BABAY! :D
2) CHALET!
3) Watch my first M18 movie with fellow 18 year olds :D
4) Celebrate the world not ending xD
5) Maybe drink a little vodka legally ^^ just a little! :P
Things to do with friends at the beginning of 2013:
1) Get driving lesson with Judy and other 18 year old friends
Things to do with friends after A Levels:
1) One more chalet!
2) Go overseas!!
3) get a job together :)
Went to Library to study ^^
Went to library with Fuxuna and Ru to study today :) It was quite successful I must say :) Then I came home at around 7pm and brought them home with me and we decided to relax a bit by watching music videos and for me, singing along ^^ Then I watched my very first episode of Running Man with them! Quite funny and ridiculous I must say. :D Wan Ling if you're reading this I'm sorry couldnt't hang out with you today :(
Oh wells, must go and study now. Lots of stuff to get into my head :(
Fuxuan rebonded her hair btw! :) she looks so much cooler ^^
Oh wells, must go and study now. Lots of stuff to get into my head :(
Fuxuan rebonded her hair btw! :) she looks so much cooler ^^
Monday, June 18, 2012
PW @ Steph's house
Met up with Hansel and Shamira at Jurong Point yesterday to take 241 from there to Steph's house. Chatted with Shamira and Hansel on the way. Told Shamira about Justin's surprise birthday party and asked Shamira for more details about the class outing. Sounds damn fun :D Apparently one of the dares involved drinking coffee. And the master of drinking coffee (ME) was sitting at home trying to study chem :( Damn! Hansel told me about how fun his Church camp was and said I should've gone. :)
After we got off the bus, we got lost xD All the terrace houses looked the same and some of them even had the same number :O It was damn funny. We all stood under a tree for shade and waited for Steph to come to our rescue.
Then during PW, Shamira got the message that her sister was in labour. Omg! How exciting eh? And baby Emma came to this world yesterday ^^ We kept singing songs and fooling around during PW 'cause we became lethargic after a while. Steph's mom was nice enough to provide us with lunch :) Thanks Auntie! We left Steph's house at 4pm, she also left us with 'cause she was going for dinner with her sec school friends and teachers :)
Then last night I watched the movie Pearl Harbour on Channel 5. I'm not a great fan of war movies but Pearl Harbour was exceptionally nice :) They even managed to weave a love story into the plot. It was interesting, to see the sacrifices those soldiers made for their countries :( So many people died. :X But I'd rate the movie a whopping 4.5/5. :)
Alas, I must finish studying for my common tests before 27 June so I guess I'll sign off now. Toodles~
After we got off the bus, we got lost xD All the terrace houses looked the same and some of them even had the same number :O It was damn funny. We all stood under a tree for shade and waited for Steph to come to our rescue.
Then during PW, Shamira got the message that her sister was in labour. Omg! How exciting eh? And baby Emma came to this world yesterday ^^ We kept singing songs and fooling around during PW 'cause we became lethargic after a while. Steph's mom was nice enough to provide us with lunch :) Thanks Auntie! We left Steph's house at 4pm, she also left us with 'cause she was going for dinner with her sec school friends and teachers :)
Then last night I watched the movie Pearl Harbour on Channel 5. I'm not a great fan of war movies but Pearl Harbour was exceptionally nice :) They even managed to weave a love story into the plot. It was interesting, to see the sacrifices those soldiers made for their countries :( So many people died. :X But I'd rate the movie a whopping 4.5/5. :)
Alas, I must finish studying for my common tests before 27 June so I guess I'll sign off now. Toodles~
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