Me and my Bengali Background

Something has been plaguing my mind recently. I've done a very good job of neglecting my Bengali background and whatever connection I have to it. But while doing so, I guess I shouldn't have ignored the Bengali friends I made at Bengali school while doing the blog post about my best friends a few weeks back. 

So here's a shoutout to Reetz! I've know her since primary school but we only got closer this year because our huge Bengali clique broke up since majority of them took the poly route. So since we were the only two left from the clique, I guess we got closer. :) We take the mrt home together after most lessons and chat about life and the stress in our various English schools. She's from RJC so you can only imagine. 

Hey Reetz! You're one of my besties too kay? And probably one of the few Bengali's', besides Ritarupa and Reshma, that I will keep in touch with after graduating from Bengali school. Which is this year unless I flunk my Bengali A Level. Bengali school would have been unbearable, and a mental torture, if I didn't have you there with me! :) All the best for your promos! I KNOW you'll do well, you're damn smart lah :D 

Exams Start Tomorrow

Whether I spend my 2013 being in J1 or in J2 will be determined by the exams which start tomorrow. *gulps*

I have been trying my best to avoid social media. Stopped blogging for a while, stopped updating my Facebook and Twitter, even stopped calling friends to stop myself from being distracted, and to keep my focus. 

Well, let's see if all these pays off. I am still not done with my revision, mind you. So...I shouldn't be here. Will update more after the exams. Ciao :)

Monday Blues

My leg is still injured so I couldn't do PE today. :( Getting fatter. Anyways, they announced during PE that there will be post promo activities. I'm going to choose the Hip Hop Course, followed by Archery. My leg better heal by then! Why the hip hop course? 'Cause I actually DO like to dance, believe it or not. But only choreographed dancing, not freestyle. And Archery 'cause Katniss made it look SO cool in the Hunger Games. :D 

My revision is going well but the pace is too slow :(
Wendy and I have decided to send each other encouraging text messages every mornin to keep us both going. :) 

Ps. I just found out that the McDonalds meal with the highest amount of calories is the Big Breakfast. I'm SO staying away. AND I just found out that a woman in the US lost 34kg by restricting all her meals to those available Starbucks for two years. You know what to do Jaslin~

This was SUCH a random blog post. Pretty obvious that I'm just stalling for time before I go study eh? Ciao :D time to study. 

You're the only one

Thought I'd share some music with y'all for once! That's Jason Chen up there singing You're the only one. It's nice :D Do take a listen! :)

Anyways, had Mother Tongue exam this morning. I screwed it up man, too much unfamiliar vocab words. >< Hope that I pass, at least :( Omg, I'm damn sleepy now! But I have to send an email to Ms Aisha. But I don't know her email!! :(
Screw this, I shall go and take a nap first :P

Ps. Ate Takoyaki at Junction 8 for lunch with Reetz after so long! It was delish! The taste still lingers in my mouth :D

Retain

You see the title of my post up there? That word hangs over my head. I can feel it's weight. All my life, I've never once worried about having to retain. And now, the possibility seems rather high. BUT I don't want to leave the friends I made in J1 behind, I don't want to disappoint my teachers, I don't want to be left behind. I don't want to waste time. One more year...this is no joke is it??

:( 10 more days left to promos and I'm not even halfway done through my revision. So much to do, and yet I just keep feeling tired. And as a result, I end up slacking or procrastinating. The timebomb is ticking, I know it, but I am not doing much to help myself. I tell myself not to give up, and yet find myself giving up time and again.

All my blogposts from now till the Promos will be about...promos. I will come here to de-stress, talk things out, and encourage myself. Jaslin, you can do it. You have done it before. You don't lose until YOU admit defeat. And didn't Mr Tan just say something along the line of you being able to get a B for Physics? How about you cooperate with him and make his words come true eh?

Maths and Physics were your best subjects in secondary school. Why are you letting your fear take away your prowess in these subjects? You're so afraid of failing that you forgot how much you used to actually like these subjects.

As for Chemistry, do you really want to let Ms Aisha down? She's leaving next year. At least give her the satisfaction of knowing that all of us in 12S20 has done well relatively well in chem for the end of year exams.

10 days Jaslin. 240 hours. Tell yourself that THAT amount of time is ENOUGH. It's SUFFICIENT. Time will be on your side, if you're gonna use it wisely.

Shall go study for my mother tongue prelims which is tomorrow. Wish me luck :)

Seventeen Magazine writer wannabe

Okay, so I submitted an article to Seventeen magazine (US version) 'cause they're currently having a competition kinda thing and if they like what they read, then I may be able to contribute more to their magazine. So I emailed them, and waited for a response.

And the response surprisingly came. I actually got a reply from the US headquarters! So I was elated of course. But then they told me that I need to get 5 guys to join the Seventeen Hot Guy Panel. I guess it's sort of like a test. And then, I saw my dreams being washed down the drain. Where the hell am I going to find 5 hot guys?!

So I asked my sec school best guy friends and they all refuse to sign up for the damn thing. I mean, u don't have to qualify, u just need to sign up, that's all. :( I asked An too and he too refused. Bleh :X If my friends refuse to help me, who will? Maybe I should just give up and say goodbye to the notion of me getting in. Bye Seventeen. :(

If only I was close to some of the rugby guys. :(

Don't question my friendship please :(

You're going away and I'm really upset
Add that to the fact that I can't send you off
This situation stinks more than a rat
But that doesn't give anyone the right to scoff
and challenge my dedication to you as a friend

If I had a choice, I'd be there at the airport tonight
Waving you goodbye, maybe hugging you tight?
Trying to catch a glimpse of your back, until you're out of sight
And praying that you have a safe flight
What I wouldn't do to be there, it would be such a delight
Beats sitting at home and waving at airplanes as they fly past my home all night

Alas, I hope you're not disappointed in me
'cause that would be a heavy burden to bear
I'll prove to you someday, somehow
That I really do care
And that my friend, is a vow