So close...and yet so far

Yesterday some of the Drama people and I (and Mazi) went to Burger King at Jurong Point to hang out. This is only the 2nd time I got to hang out with such a small clique of drama people. It's more fun than having the whole drama clique cause people will be talking all over each other. :(

Anyways, HE was there...and he took my breath away with every strum of his guitar. Well, technically MY guitar but when he plays it, he owns it, it's his. :) A lot of crush related secrets were exposed yesterday. Wendy's, Hejin's, and my crushes were exposed. Mine was exposed cause An was looking through the picture on my phone and saw one of ____ that I obviously stole from his FB page. -.- Damn!

But An's a good friend, he promised to keep it a secret. ^^ Anyways, gotta go for breakfast. Brb!

Back! It's Nurul's birthday today. We might be celebrating it tomorrow! :) Anyways, I skipped school today 'cause I thought Mr Tan would be going through the COE tutorial today, which I haven't done, but he hasn't so...I skipped school for nothing. But I might as well use the time to study for GP! :) My GP midyear is tomorrow! >< Wish me luck! ^^

Just...in time

What happens when you're too excited to sleep? Just chatting with him makes me so happy. Talking about the new guy, not the old one! :) He came into my life outta nowhere and is gonna disappear again soon :(
I just can't get enough of him...

Life and it's downs

Recently, one of my best friend's broke up. :( I felt really sad for her and at the same time, it reminded me of HIM. So, I called Brielle, hoping it would cheer me up but hearing Brielle's voice made me want to cry more. So inevitably, the tears started to stream down my cheeks. And after a while I couldn't keep it silent. Noises were escaping from my mouth. I couldn't hold it in anymore. Brielle just laughed at me xD Haha!

Eventually it's all a lie...

And after that I stupidly went to text him all my feelings. -.- Here's what I said:

_______'s story made it all come back. I cried for her and also for myself. Well, my pretending to get over you succeeded for a while. :) But I guess to be honest I am still in love with you. First love and all. Can't even look at other guys. Sigh. Like I signed a pledge of loyalty to you or something. The scary feeling is that I might never fall in love with anyone again until many years later. x.X Tomorrow I am going to wake up and pretend that I am over you again. And this cycle is going to repeat for many years to come....nights GWICGO! (guy whom I can't get over) 

Okay, I gotta admit that the last line was cheesy. But when you're emotional your brain doesn't function well does it??

Anyways, today was the Drama showcase for the school. They were awesome :) So proud of them. The drama people were awesome! WE NEED A FREAKING DRAMA CLUB! >< I feel like quitting guitar anyway. I feel like a freeloader and have zero confidence in my guitar skills. :(

Anyways, kinda having problems accepting that I can't be any closer to ____. Not the person I sent the text to. Someone else. He's totally my type but we couldn't get close. Hmph. Life sucks sometimes. Anyways he is leaving us in June.
My mom is nagging at me to go and shower. Bye!