Life and it's downs

Recently, one of my best friend's broke up. :( I felt really sad for her and at the same time, it reminded me of HIM. So, I called Brielle, hoping it would cheer me up but hearing Brielle's voice made me want to cry more. So inevitably, the tears started to stream down my cheeks. And after a while I couldn't keep it silent. Noises were escaping from my mouth. I couldn't hold it in anymore. Brielle just laughed at me xD Haha!

Eventually it's all a lie...

And after that I stupidly went to text him all my feelings. -.- Here's what I said:

_______'s story made it all come back. I cried for her and also for myself. Well, my pretending to get over you succeeded for a while. :) But I guess to be honest I am still in love with you. First love and all. Can't even look at other guys. Sigh. Like I signed a pledge of loyalty to you or something. The scary feeling is that I might never fall in love with anyone again until many years later. x.X Tomorrow I am going to wake up and pretend that I am over you again. And this cycle is going to repeat for many years to come....nights GWICGO! (guy whom I can't get over) 

Okay, I gotta admit that the last line was cheesy. But when you're emotional your brain doesn't function well does it??

Anyways, today was the Drama showcase for the school. They were awesome :) So proud of them. The drama people were awesome! WE NEED A FREAKING DRAMA CLUB! >< I feel like quitting guitar anyway. I feel like a freeloader and have zero confidence in my guitar skills. :(

Anyways, kinda having problems accepting that I can't be any closer to ____. Not the person I sent the text to. Someone else. He's totally my type but we couldn't get close. Hmph. Life sucks sometimes. Anyways he is leaving us in June.
My mom is nagging at me to go and shower. Bye!