Me and my Bengali Background

Something has been plaguing my mind recently. I've done a very good job of neglecting my Bengali background and whatever connection I have to it. But while doing so, I guess I shouldn't have ignored the Bengali friends I made at Bengali school while doing the blog post about my best friends a few weeks back. 

So here's a shoutout to Reetz! I've know her since primary school but we only got closer this year because our huge Bengali clique broke up since majority of them took the poly route. So since we were the only two left from the clique, I guess we got closer. :) We take the mrt home together after most lessons and chat about life and the stress in our various English schools. She's from RJC so you can only imagine. 

Hey Reetz! You're one of my besties too kay? And probably one of the few Bengali's', besides Ritarupa and Reshma, that I will keep in touch with after graduating from Bengali school. Which is this year unless I flunk my Bengali A Level. Bengali school would have been unbearable, and a mental torture, if I didn't have you there with me! :) All the best for your promos! I KNOW you'll do well, you're damn smart lah :D 

Exams Start Tomorrow

Whether I spend my 2013 being in J1 or in J2 will be determined by the exams which start tomorrow. *gulps*

I have been trying my best to avoid social media. Stopped blogging for a while, stopped updating my Facebook and Twitter, even stopped calling friends to stop myself from being distracted, and to keep my focus. 

Well, let's see if all these pays off. I am still not done with my revision, mind you. So...I shouldn't be here. Will update more after the exams. Ciao :)

Monday Blues

My leg is still injured so I couldn't do PE today. :( Getting fatter. Anyways, they announced during PE that there will be post promo activities. I'm going to choose the Hip Hop Course, followed by Archery. My leg better heal by then! Why the hip hop course? 'Cause I actually DO like to dance, believe it or not. But only choreographed dancing, not freestyle. And Archery 'cause Katniss made it look SO cool in the Hunger Games. :D 

My revision is going well but the pace is too slow :(
Wendy and I have decided to send each other encouraging text messages every mornin to keep us both going. :) 

Ps. I just found out that the McDonalds meal with the highest amount of calories is the Big Breakfast. I'm SO staying away. AND I just found out that a woman in the US lost 34kg by restricting all her meals to those available Starbucks for two years. You know what to do Jaslin~

This was SUCH a random blog post. Pretty obvious that I'm just stalling for time before I go study eh? Ciao :D time to study. 

You're the only one

Thought I'd share some music with y'all for once! That's Jason Chen up there singing You're the only one. It's nice :D Do take a listen! :)

Anyways, had Mother Tongue exam this morning. I screwed it up man, too much unfamiliar vocab words. >< Hope that I pass, at least :( Omg, I'm damn sleepy now! But I have to send an email to Ms Aisha. But I don't know her email!! :(
Screw this, I shall go and take a nap first :P

Ps. Ate Takoyaki at Junction 8 for lunch with Reetz after so long! It was delish! The taste still lingers in my mouth :D

Retain

You see the title of my post up there? That word hangs over my head. I can feel it's weight. All my life, I've never once worried about having to retain. And now, the possibility seems rather high. BUT I don't want to leave the friends I made in J1 behind, I don't want to disappoint my teachers, I don't want to be left behind. I don't want to waste time. One more year...this is no joke is it??

:( 10 more days left to promos and I'm not even halfway done through my revision. So much to do, and yet I just keep feeling tired. And as a result, I end up slacking or procrastinating. The timebomb is ticking, I know it, but I am not doing much to help myself. I tell myself not to give up, and yet find myself giving up time and again.

All my blogposts from now till the Promos will be about...promos. I will come here to de-stress, talk things out, and encourage myself. Jaslin, you can do it. You have done it before. You don't lose until YOU admit defeat. And didn't Mr Tan just say something along the line of you being able to get a B for Physics? How about you cooperate with him and make his words come true eh?

Maths and Physics were your best subjects in secondary school. Why are you letting your fear take away your prowess in these subjects? You're so afraid of failing that you forgot how much you used to actually like these subjects.

As for Chemistry, do you really want to let Ms Aisha down? She's leaving next year. At least give her the satisfaction of knowing that all of us in 12S20 has done well relatively well in chem for the end of year exams.

10 days Jaslin. 240 hours. Tell yourself that THAT amount of time is ENOUGH. It's SUFFICIENT. Time will be on your side, if you're gonna use it wisely.

Shall go study for my mother tongue prelims which is tomorrow. Wish me luck :)

Seventeen Magazine writer wannabe

Okay, so I submitted an article to Seventeen magazine (US version) 'cause they're currently having a competition kinda thing and if they like what they read, then I may be able to contribute more to their magazine. So I emailed them, and waited for a response.

And the response surprisingly came. I actually got a reply from the US headquarters! So I was elated of course. But then they told me that I need to get 5 guys to join the Seventeen Hot Guy Panel. I guess it's sort of like a test. And then, I saw my dreams being washed down the drain. Where the hell am I going to find 5 hot guys?!

So I asked my sec school best guy friends and they all refuse to sign up for the damn thing. I mean, u don't have to qualify, u just need to sign up, that's all. :( I asked An too and he too refused. Bleh :X If my friends refuse to help me, who will? Maybe I should just give up and say goodbye to the notion of me getting in. Bye Seventeen. :(

If only I was close to some of the rugby guys. :(

Don't question my friendship please :(

You're going away and I'm really upset
Add that to the fact that I can't send you off
This situation stinks more than a rat
But that doesn't give anyone the right to scoff
and challenge my dedication to you as a friend

If I had a choice, I'd be there at the airport tonight
Waving you goodbye, maybe hugging you tight?
Trying to catch a glimpse of your back, until you're out of sight
And praying that you have a safe flight
What I wouldn't do to be there, it would be such a delight
Beats sitting at home and waving at airplanes as they fly past my home all night

Alas, I hope you're not disappointed in me
'cause that would be a heavy burden to bear
I'll prove to you someday, somehow
That I really do care
And that my friend, is a vow

Feedback from Mr Rishi

Just checked my email the other night and got feedback from Mr Rishi regarding my emcee-ing skills. :) Most of them are positive, thank goodness. I really learned a lot from this guy. Thanks Mr Rishi, you rock :D Here's the feedback:


Strengths:


- Pleasant and connects well with audience
- Very comfortable on stage
- Very positive attitude and strong work ethics
- Great with impromptu and off the cuff crowd work
- More suited to informal hosting


Areas of Improvement:


- Voice and volume could do with some work
- Should slow down and breathe to relax herself
- Should continuously expose herself to more hosting gigs
- You are a natural.
- People will like you and you will do great.Keep it up!

The Areas of improvement, I totally expected it. But the strengths I totally didn't expect. :O Guess the emcee course really made me less shy after all :) I didn't expect the "More suited to informal hosting" part 'cause I always thought I was a formal person :O

Anyways, gotta go do work now. Toodles~

Ice Skating @ The Rink at JCube

So I went ice skating yesterday with Justin and his invited guests. I screamed like a little girl man. TT It was my first time so I kept losing my balance and wanting to fall. And fall I did. Fell once when trying to skate with Jiaxin, once with An and once with Justin. -.- 

At least I didn't bring Jiaxin down with me! I brought An and Justin down WITH me. :( I'm so sorry guys! Especially Justin, he fell on the same hand 3 times. And yesterday he was complaining on Twitter that he might have sprained his hand. What an awesome parting gift I gave him eh? :( I'm gonna be guilty forever. 

Btw, I'd really like to thank Justin for persuading me to go, 'cause at first I didn't want to cause I was afraid of embarrassing myself. I DID embarrass myself but at least I learned how to ice skate! :D And i'm gonna go back to the ice real soon to get better at it. :) I AM GONNA CONQUER THE ICE...soon. :X 

Meanwhile, I am nursing a swollen leg, which I got from falling down >< Everytime I learn some new sport, I get injured. When I learned to roller skate, I fell and hurt my butt. When I learned to cycle, I fell and bruised my knee. And now a swollen leg. Good thing I have high tolerance for pain. I even ran after a bus yesterday with Wendy with my throbbing leg. :D Somehow, I feel like dancing or running. ._. I can only appreciate the beauty of movement when I can't move so well. 

Couldn't toss and turn in bed last night. Damn annoying :( Had to lie in the same position. Fuck. Oh well, fun comes at a prize right? :) Ok now I'm upset 'cause I can't send Justin off tonight. :( His flight is late at night so my mom doesn't allow, especially 'cause of the swollen leg. *flips table* Oh well :( Will wave goodbye to any airplane I see in the sky tonight that leaves after his flight time slot. Hope he has a safe flight. :) 

Ps. Don't have any photos of myself ice skating tho, nvm, will take photos next time :)

P.p.s Saw a lot of familiar faces outside the rink as well. Jasmine, Alex, and gang and also Elvin and Jiang :)

A BIG thanks to mom for letting me go! :)

Farewell my friend

There's nothing that's so final about leaving
Even though I know that's what you've heard
Just like forgive, forget and try again
Goodbye is just another word. 

- Goodbye is Just another word by Lobo

So, Justin's leaving for UK this Saturday. Lucky guy. :) What wouldn't I do to be on that flight with him? 

I have never met a guy with a personality like his. Like, seriously. He's one of a kind. xD
My first impression of him was based on what Wendy had told me. The Guy who Got a Scholarship. And then he became The Guy with The Ukulele after the first drama meet-up, where he got us all singing. :) And then he was Justin. But I was only able to call him a friend in June. From March all the way to May, although we had tons of drama practices together, he was busy acting and I was busy slacking...and doing my lights stuff. There wasn't much opportunity for interaction, except for the time I applied the orange make-up on him. ._.

At first I used to find him intimidating. xD I was worried that he might make a sarcastic comment and I wouldn't be able to react appropriately. And then, I started to hang out with him and some of the drama people more and I guess that's when I realised that besides being a really fun guy, he's also pretty nice. :)

Thanks for the relationship advice Justin. I hope it can really come to use some day. :X I get the impression that behind his calm, composed and cool exterior, he has a sensitive side. I remember how Wendy borrowed Justin's Econs notes last time. I think it's Econs, not too sure though. And he had song lyrics scribbled on the front cover. And the song was none other than "Jar of Hearts". At that moment, that song was particularly close to my heart too, so I felt like I had this strange connection with Justin, even though we hadn't even met through drama yet. xD Crazy me. 

Le Justin. I like his smile. Hope the girls in UK will like it too. *winks*

In his Tux with his guitar. :) And yes, I stole the photos from FB. xD
5 hours later...

I'm done stalking his photos. Back to the post. Where was I?

Oh yes. Just wanted to wish Justin all the best with his studies in the UK. :) Leave your mark there but do come back home. :) And and and Justin if you're reading this, I hope I get the chance to see you when you come back in Nov/December. :)

Thanks for the memories! Laser Tag, dinner at Dempsey Hill, whatever nice thing you ever said to me...thanks for everything buddy! :D I'll NEVER forget you, you hipster. :)

Come to think of it, if I feel this upset at the fact that you're leaving, and I'm not even THAT close to you, I can only imagine the buckets of tears I'd be shedding if I was any closer to you. >< What can I say? I'm an emotional person. 

I should be doing PW now. Shamira's gonna kill me. 

Goodbye Justin. Have a safe flight. I'll miss you :( 

How I spent Teacher's Day

The day started off really well  'cause I had a dream of someone, and when I woke up and checked my phone, there was a message from him, and that brought a smile to my otherwise groggy face. :) I like coincidences like this :) 

Ok, so on the morning of Teacher's day, we all gathered at the Hall, and started off with the Aces Day workout first. :) It was great 'cause most people were dancing! Loved the instructor, he was so damn enthusiastic!

Btw, I have decided to use different colours for my post, each colour reflecting my mood while I type that post. :) 

The concert was great! Enjoyed the performance by the new teachers! One of them was brave enough to dance to Oppa Gangnam Style! I was also looking forward to the performance by the Guitar Orchestra, Modern Dance, and the Student Councilors cause all my friends would be performing! Jessica and Jasmine did well for La Campersita (I forgot the spelling) and La Bamba. :) Good job guys! And Fuxuan danced well for modern dance! Mazi was awesome too! The SC dance's routine was so nice! I believe Wei Qing choreographed it? Good one Wei Qing! :) Ps. I realised that Wei Qing makes a good Emcee too :)

After school went to catch Step Up Revolution at the JP cinema with Judy! Didn't get to see Justin though, he hadn't reached school yet, but I had to leave alr. :( Anyways, the movie was awesome! Fuxuan wanted to join us too but she had a PW meeting. Sucks to be her xD kidding kidding. The movie was so awesome I was bouncing up and down in my seat xD I am so taking dance classes after A Levels ^^ Saw Choir and Prefect juniors on the bus on the way to JP and chatted a bit. Then saw Janice, Jia Yun and Yong Hui at JP. :) OH and Mrs Yan! We saw her at Chameleon, she was shopping for a hairband or something. I was so delighted when she could remember my name! She was my teacher in sec 2!! That's so long ago. xD And no, she didn't remember Purification, she remembered Jaslin. *squeals* 

After that Judy and I went to eat KFC, and then we went to shops and tried on shoes etc. Then we got bored and decided to go to Koko's condo, The Centris! Been ages since I've gone there. >< At first we wanted to sneak in on our own but then Judy got scared when she saw the "Prosecutors will be severely punished" sign. So we decided to wait for Koko and Jiun Yeu instead. Once they arrived, we went in. To my horror, the moment we got off at the 5th floor of the Centris, near the pool, I realised that there was a security guard sitting right beside the lift. We had to register our names and also show him who is the person who lives in the condo. Oh boy. If we had snuck in, we would have been in deep shit. 

Once we made ourselves comfortable in Koko's house, he asked what movie we wanted to watch! In his hands were a couple of DVDs. The moment I saw the 3 Idiots movie in his hand, I just knew that Judy had to watch it! And boy, we not only watched it, we laughed our asses off at it xD And Judy even cried :( Best movie ever <3 font="font" nbsp="nbsp">

And after the movie, at about 8pm, we finally headed home. It was an awesome day :) I'm going back to his condo soon to take dips in the baby pool since I can't swim xD Upon reaching home, I had to do mother tongue homework. -.- Ok, that's all for what I did on Friday.Will update about today tomorrow xD Too tired to continue, it's 12.47 man! Nights :)